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In short, the male who adopts feminine attire escapes for the moment from the requirements of masculinity that assails him all the rest of his life. (This is not to say that dislikes his masculine life to the point that he would give it up completely--such a person is a transsexual not a TV--generally he enjoys being a man most of the time but nevertheless is very happy when the moment comes that he can put it aside for a bit). He is in another world and "free" to explore it unhindered by the requirements and expecta- tions of others with which he usually has to contend.

Perhaps a personal example will illustrate. My train- ing has been in science and thus my mind runs to logical thinking. I like to use it in discussions, I have a lot of ideas wanting out so I talk a lot and I expect in a rather aggressive way. Being a tense person I drive somewhat fast- er than I should, but with a sharp eye.. This goes for Charles but when Virginia is present she doesn't care to talk so much so intensely or to think as much. She also drives con- siderably slower and in a different way. (y wife tells me this and she is frequently critical of Charles' driving.) Men sometimes give Virginia a dirty look and I can just hear them say, woman driver"! If in conversation the sub-

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I find my voice lowering and my gestures changing as Charles unintentionally begins to "take over" from Virginia. I am

still Virginia by appearance, but with the stimulation of the conversation the clothes are liable to be forgotten in favor of the intellectual exercise.

RELIEF FROM SOCIAL EXPECTANCY: This motivation is very sim- ilar to the one just previous but deprived of gender. That is, we have been discussing the escape from masculinity into femininity-a change of gender. But regardless of what gen- der a person is he or she goes about under a load of what I call social expectancy. Society "expects" us to behave in certain ways, remain inside certain boundaries and having developed a certain type of personality in our formative years to remain that personality. I am sure that all of us get tired of being ourselves at times. We long to be a diff- erent type of personality somehow. The staid, conservative